Excuses, Excuses, Excuses

Last night, a friend inadvertently reminded me that "my cup runneth over" with excuses as to why I hadn't worked out in 3 weeks (ok, 4 weeks).  Wow, as I heard myself rattle off the "reasons", I realized I was trying to justify my actions.

Shortly after that gut-wrenching realization, I was talking to that same friend on Facebook IM and another startling discovery was made.  God is not just going to bring my mate to me and miraculously drop him in my life.  I have to create a life of my own that could include someone who likes the same interests   I have to be proactive.  Now I'm not talking about scoping out the grocery stores for some single pitiful man that needs a woman, or stalking "manly" men at the Home Depot or Lowes.  And I'm certainly not talking about frequenting bars looking for "Mr. Right".  I'm talking about living my life and enjoying the things I want to do such as museums, botanical gardens, volunteering, etc..  Although I'm back at school this semester with 5 classes (they are broken up into two sections, I'm not COMPLETELY insane y'all), but I have to work on ME.

I've been reading an interesting book "How To Be Found By the Man You've Been Looking For" by Michelle McKinney Hammond.  It's pretty enlightening and biblically backed up with scripture.  After my conversation with my friend, I got the copy of this book back out, which I had put down and had never finished.  WOW!! I got hit in the head right between the eyes with this 2 x 4 of self-realization "Perhaps this is your season for self-development." Ok God, I think I understand that, but all at once?  Really?  School, career, child, attitude, health, finances --- wow --- that's a lot on my plate.  But God DOES give us more than WE can handle, so that we rely on HIM!!!!  There is no way on earth or with my own humanity that I can handle or do all of that on my own.  Thankfully, I don't have to.

So...........tonight I'll be finishing up my English homework, organizing my "Gazelle Intensity" for my debt snowball, doing dishes, laundry, loving on my kid and getting in some sort of work out again.  This is going to be an intense summer and I hope to be able to get some non-intellectual fun in there some time.  But my Lord and Savior has a plan for me, although I don't know where it is leading me, but I know it's going to be awesome with Him at the helm of this ship.  So if you see me smiling through the pain of working out and school, it's because I know that on the other side of this cavernous valley is an amazing blessing that I can't even begin to imagine for me.  Whether or not that includes a future mate is still unknown, but I'm ok with that if He doesn't want that for me, because I will love Him whether I am blessed with singleness or blessed with a mate.

So those of you who "hunger" for that companionship of a husband or wife.  Ask yourself this question --- are you being proactive in pursuing things you've wanted to try or do the things you like to do, regardless of whether or not anyone else goes with you?  I'm not saying only do the things that would attract the opposite sex, I'm saying do things that attract YOU.  If it's in God's will for you to have a mate, you putting yourself out there and living your life (not sitting on the couch watching tv), loving and being obedient to God will be the attractant.